Me and the Moon

So this is my actual post for the night.

I looked at the moon tonight and never had it seemed so close to me. I stopped and at that moment it seemed like just me in the world. Me and that good ole moon. When i realized it was just us, I guess you can say it was bold of me but I just happened to say "hey" and the moon responded back with a similar greeting.. "Sup". So i told him what was good. How my life was. What i wanted out of it. Whats missing. If i could take back.. you kno those question that people ask you when they want to get into your mind. After i finally stopped talking, the moon looked at me and said, " you have everything. every night i watch you. i look into your dreams and i know what you want. you have everything you want, you just gotta reach out and grab it." I looked into the moon and though i knew i was either hit on the head really hard or mayb i was just going crazy, but at that moment it didnt matter. There was a reason that when i looked into the moon tonight, nothing else in the world was there. It was almost like the moon knew that it was time that i realized that its up to me. Everything i want it up to me. And i cant be afraid to go after it. Because in the end, i had to live my life.. Tonight is the night.. Thank you moon, good night..

Split in two

Everytime i see you.
My heart stops.
Everytime i think about you,
Everything in my brain pops
Makes room for you
The laughs the tears
The endless nights we thought about our future years
But we are severed now
Against our wills
Split in half like a night time pill
Expected to work with the strength always given
But spilt we are, and no, we dont want ribbon
A broken clock
How am i supposed to work?
You took out my batteries
I dont know the time jerk!
You say i am gone
And yes that is true
You bought me the ticket
When you split the pill in two...

This is for last nights miss.. :)

11:54.. In six mintues this day will be over. In six mintues nothing that happened today will matter because it happened today. Everything that hurt me today won't hurt me tomorrow because I'm stronger. 11:55. In five mintues how I felt today won't be how I will feel tomorrow.. I won't remember how u treated me. How you looked at me.. 11:56.. In four mintues I move on.. I move on because four mintues from now it doesn't matter anymore.. The past is the past ..11:57.. Three mintues from now, I will love you more..though today wasn't our day, tomorrow will bring back more love.. 11:58.. Two mintues.. I miss you.. One mintue to reflect.. 11:59.. I love you.. And in one mintue.. I'll love you more.. BC it's a new day

Dear ___________

Dear _________,

I know who you are, and I can feel you. You are watching out for me. I can tell. You love me from afar. You know my every move. You know how I smell, how I taste and how I love. You love me. But you dont know how. You want me, but you dont think I want you. You want to say something but you cant. I know you but we lost it. It was cut off. We tried to bring it back but they didnt let it happen. Now your just there. And so am I. I`m something without you but I am something more with you. I need you to wake up and realize that you are worthy to be with me. We are different. But we love the same. I sleep sometimes and hear your heartbeat. Your heart is racing. You know why? Because I know you I hear it. It scares you how much I love you. But you know what? It scares me that somebody can mean so much to me. I wanna say your name but i cant. Your more then just a name and to call you by it doesnt show how much you mean to me. I love you _______.. And I always will..

I Love You Too

Sometimes when we touch, I cant even breath,
And when you kiss me, i dont even know where im at..
Then there are those times that I see you, and i just fall in love with you all over
Oh and when I just hear you and dont see you, I get butterflies because i know your near
Hey guess what?! When I`m with you, my world spins backwards..
Did you know that i have never loved anybody as much as i love you?
But you wanna know the worst part?
When i miss you, none of this matters because i cant have it..
I do want all of this when i miss you..
But nothing beats those three simple words
The words that i said first.. remember that?
i`ll give you a hint..
It starts with I and ends in You..
And if you say it to me..
I`ll say
I Love You Too..

At what point in life do you make decisions for yourself? Is it now while your young? Or do you go with the flow until your 18 and then just have a field day exercising the fact that you are officially legal? For a couple of year I have been toying with this. I am at a point in my life where there a decision that I am making but its not advised by my parental. All my life i have done what i am supposed to do. Good grades. Good everything. But now I am starting to see that I am getting to that point where I want to make decisions for Sydney. Now without going into details, I`m not thinking about killing anyone, or doing drugs or getting something ridic tattooed on my boobs. Its a simple thing that even though ill advised, I feel with sometime, this will work. I`m confident that this is something that, for the moment is a minor problem. But with time, it wont be an issue. I`m just trying to figure out at what point do i start to think about Sydney and Sydney only. Not mom and dad and Sydney but Sydney. Sydney wants this bad.. but it doesn't seem that Sydney will get it right now. But at what point do i start to make decisions for my life? When can i officially start. I need this answer or the next year of my life will not be something to remember...

In..TROOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

So I figured before I get into the actual creative writing, I am going to ease into this. Not too too slow but for tonight, I think I`m just going to introduce myself to the followers. My name is Sydney Durrah and I sit in the first row. I`m the black girl behind Chynia (spell check..my bad girl! i know its not like the country so give me some love for that). And I know the burning question might be present since you just read my name so to answer it and save you the yearning, yes, I am Mrs. Durrah`s daughter. Yes it sucks to have your mom in the school and no i dont hit her up for money, its usually the other way around.;)I play varsity basketball at our high school and I love every second of it. Plus, it allows me to drink soda at my leisure and not have to stress about it because I end up sweating it off anyway at practice. Without basketball, there`s no soda and without soda, my life is incomplete soooooooo we all make out in the long run. Aside from basketball, I enjoy electronics.. I am a gadget geek and my mom hates it because I always want the new thing. I am the proud parent of the iPhone 3g and a new mother to a Sony Reader that i adore. They are my main focus right now and without them I am nothing. For this blog, I am considering playing with the idea for a novel. It is not going to be my focus but i promise everything will flow. i was never a poet. I can rhyme when i have the time. But for the sake of the class, cause i do wanna pass, I`m gonna grace you with my words in the form of books, reread over that.. take a look, because i have the time, i just made that work and rhyme.. lol on purpose. So I`m going to hit the hay and think of some ideas so i can actually come out with something for a lifetime. Good Night bloggers..